There is blue sky ahead...

(Thanks to my brother Brady for this awesome picture!)

Where do I begin...? This week has been challenging, thoughtful, emotional, spiritual, tearful, prayerful, healing, loving, and scattered with small doses of smiles and laughter. I feel like I've been on somewhat of an emotional amusement park ride. But here is what I'm grateful for:

• The most amazing husband in the world. He has taken such good care of me. He's done everything this week from clean the house, cook the meals, give me massages, talk me through all my emotions, and just hold me while I cried. I am a lucky woman.
• My beautiful baby girl who has allowed me to smother her with kisses, hugs, and about a million "I love you's". So many of my wonderful friends have offered to take her or watch her so I could get some rest, and while all the offers are greatly appreciated and very thoughtful...she was just the one little person I couldn't bare to be away from this week. She keeps the smiles and laughter ever present in our home.
• The support and love of my family, friends and neighbors. I have been touched and overwhelmed by the outpouring of flowers, food, gifts, emails, phone calls, notes and visitors reaching out to me this week. It really has been healing to know that I have such wonderful people in my life. I can't thank you all enough.
• My faith. Just two weeks ago I stood in front of my church congregation and gave a talk about the importance of the scriptures in our lives. I spoke about the power of the scriptures to "heal the wounded soul". This week I have put my words to the test, and each time my heart began to ache, I turned to the scriptures for peace. It has been there, and in thoughtful prayer, that I have found it.

I'm really doing well both physically and emotionally. My energy is back. It feels good to get up in the morning and be well rested and not be nauseous. It feels good to run around, roll around and "really" play with my little "r" again. I missed that these last few months. If feels good to be accomplishing all the things on my "to do" list again.

Don't get me wrong, I would still give anything to be pregnant and to have our little baby back, but that's not what the Lords has in store for me right now. So I will look for all the good and focus on that.

As dark as the day may seem...if you look for it...there is always blue sky ahead.

MY FUNNY GIRL!

This is a terrible picture but I couldn't help posting it. I've said that Reese has kept me smiling and laughing this last week and this is one example. This particular day she was walking around the house in my slippers and her hat, flapping the ears up and down while singing to herself. Pacular...maybe...but I couldn't stop laughing.