Thursday, January 21, 2010

A sad day...

I'm supposed to be taking a nap, on orders from my husband, but I just can't sleep. I suppose this has to be done, one way or another, so I would rather get it over with.

This morning we found out that we have lost our baby. It has been rather shocking as I was almost 16 weeks along and well past the "worry" stage of a miscarriage. But for some reason the little person inside of me passed away a few weeks ago and the placenta and uterus continued to grow. That's why I've had no signs or expectations of a miscarriage. I guess it's pretty rare, but does happen sometimes.

Nothing about the process of motherhood seems to be easy or expected. But I'm grateful still, to be a woman and to have the gift of motherhood bestowed upon me. I'm especially grateful for the little girl that I get to hang out with everyday and who has continued to make me smile despite the sadness I feel inside. She is my angel.

17 comments:

SeƱora Daiana said...

Mindi I'm so sorry. It's so hard to understand why things happen the way they do. All we can do is trust in the Lord. We are thinking about you guys you're in our prayers.

Melissa said...

Oh Mindi... I am SO sorry. Please let me know if there is anything you need!

Louise said...

Mindi and Arnold,
So sorry to hear the news! We love you and are praying that you will feel peace during this challenging time. Truly having Reese is such a blessing! We are here for you.

katielayne said...

Mindi, I'm so sorry. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.
Take care of yourself.

Brad and Michelle Peterson said...

Mindi, I am so sorry! Miscarriages are hard. But know that you are surrounded by people who love you and are praying for you. If you need anything please let me help!

{lindy baker cakes} said...

Oh Mindi my thoughts and prayers are with you. I'm so sorry.

Lindsey said...

I'm so sorry Mindi. Life just doesn't seem to be fair sometimes. We will be thinking about you guys! Please let me know if I can do anything to help! Alexis would love a Reese playdate! :)

Chellese said...

Mindi, you are a beautiful woman. I'm so glad to know you. I'm grateful for the things you teach me. The way you express your gratitude in a time of heartbreak is more than admirable. I love you, Mindi. I'm so sorry. You are in my prayers.

Lacy said...

You are such a strong person. I am so very sorry. I am so glad you have Reese to look at and hold and love. I really admire you. Let me know if you need anything. I am thinking and praying for you.

Julie Kaye said...

I can not believe how confident and peaceful you sound! Admirable. I hope that you really do receive a blessing of peace as I could never imagine the feeling. We love you.

Tennisa Nordfelt said...

Oh Mindi, I am so sad to hear this news. You amazing woman you, I know you are loving being a mother and must feel such a loss. You'll be in my heart and thoughts sweety.

Love,
Tennisa

pam said...

Mindi, I am SO SAD right now. I am SO SORRY. I wish I had the perfect words to say to you to make you and Arnold feel better and take the heart-ache away. Just know that I love you and will keep you guys in my prayers. I love you.

Estela said...

You are an admirable person. Your strength, faith, and acceptance are an example. I know there is not much I can do to ease your pain but let me know if I can help in any other way.

Sushi-Mama said...

I love you, Mindi, and I have been thinking about you all day today. I wish I could be there to give you a big hug! I'm so sorry that you and Arnold have to go through this. I can feel your heartache in your blog post, but your grateful attitude and your sense of peace are an example to me. I pray that you will feel the Holy Comforter each day as you heal and try to understand. Yes, I agree with you, being a mother is a great blessing- and I too feel honored to have this calling in life. Hang in there. . .

Unknown said...

Mindi, I'm so sorry to hear that. I will be praying for you and your family. Know I am thinking of you.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry to hear your sad news.

Janelle said...

I'm so sorry to hear that. Let me know if you need anything... dinner, a sitter, anything. We'll be back from Washington Feb 16th.